Tired. I want to do my own stuff now. Don't want to bother about anything else or anyone else. Just my own stuff. World, pls take care of yourself. I can't be bothered anymore.

This is useful for me. Lol, and maybe even relevant now.

On this day of your life, Juliana, we believe God wants you to know ... that you can only give away what you already have inside yourself.

True giving happens when you are overflowing from the inside, and cannot help but share. When there is so much love within you that it has to flow to others or you would burst open. There is no thinking involved, no willpower in such sharing. It just flows out. If you have to force yourself to be kind, to love, to feel compassion, you've missed the first step of filling in your own Self with these emotions.

How depressing.

Crap. Its only been 3 days. But already I miss him so much. *scowls* That marriage better last a million years to justify this, haha!

There's a ton of stuff to blog about. I got stung by a blue bottle jellyfish (Portuguese Man 'o War jellyfish) at Stradbroke, but didn't die, just had some red streaks on my skin for a while. Discovered a beautiful cove near the North Gorge walk, 'whale something blowtop'. If heaven was a cove, it would look a bit like that.

Ate at Hanaichi and saw Where the Wild Things Are yesterday. HJ left the cinema, lol. But the show wasn't thaaaat bad. Just hard to understand, probably. Still, i was touched at moments. I get that movie.

Been viewing houses. I feel like building a tree house of my own. At least maybe then I'll be able to get what I want. *sweatdrop*

There's a meteor shower tonight. I want to watch it. But it will be a bit sad to do so.

Mom and sis are arriving tmr. Lol, I'm bad at keeping track of days. I thought they'd come the day after. So today is a mad scramble of cleaning, tidying, throwing things away, buying things, and hiding things that shouldn't be seen. Haha! But I'm not too bothered. My LIFE!

The upstairs neighbour is Japanese and is called Riki. I likes that name. Maybe I'll squander some of my RA money next year learning Jap. That dream has been a long time coming.

I have a plan brewing in my head as well. Kekekekeke...



Next year I'm bringing my guitar back. And if possible, I'll buy a keyboard. Take that, world!!!!

I am vastly amused. Shall I tell you why?

Today, I opened my mailbox, and this fell out:

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30/11/2009

Attn: Unit Number #
________ Street


Dear neighbours,

I am writing in regard to the late night noise that has frequently been originating from your unit over the last weeks. This late night noise includes partying, the use of stereo equipment at high volumes, and very loud speaking/screaming with open balcony doors/windows, often past midnight. This noise presents a significant disturbance to your neighbours, who have to work early the next day.

In the interest of your neighbours, I would therefore like to ask you to stop this late night noise. Thank you very much for your consideration.

With kind regards,

Your neighbours

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♥

I feel like I should sign the letter as well, haha. Its a bit late in coming though. I wish they'd sent it earlier this year. Like in March. Haha!

But anyways, I'm going to give it to The Man and The Footballer later :) Ahhhh, life is good.

Other good news is that my IELTS results are back. I totally didn't expect anything fancy, but apparently I've scored band 9 in the Listening, Reading, Writing sections, and an 8.5 in the Speaking section. Overall band score is 9.0. THis is gooooood. I am now officially an expert user of English *milks it for all its worth, lol*

Now, if only I can ace GAMSATS as well. *crosses fingers*


EDIT: To be fair, they haven't been that noisy these past few weeks. They were more noisy in the middle of the year. So I was actually surprised to open the letterbox and find that letter, lol. But it did still amuse me, muahahahaha!

My God. I really deserve the title 'NOOOOB!'

Haih. *cries*

I forgot that ppl usually want cover letters to go with CVs. Dammnit!

Now I'm sooo super sleepy (until can bang my head against a wall accidentally *cries*), but I need to write like 6 cover letters before tomorrow, so that the admin ppl can easily find my proper, 'real' applications *cries a river of tears*.

I'm inexplicably satisfied given my unemployed status, my uncertainty in other areas, and the fact that EVERYTHING is up in the air, and I have no reason to even believe I'll remain in Brisbane, or M'sia, or anywhere next year.

Maybe its because when you remove yourself from an uncomfortable situation or place to a slightly better situation, the improvement is immediately noticeable. And I've not had any recent quality time with that precious someone that has been my strength and bulwark throughout the years. At least, not alone and intimate, with no thoughts of any other intruding on us. Lol. What I mean is, I haven't been appreciating having one-on-one time with myself for a long time now.

Previously being alone meant working in the little hours of the night in the lab. Recently, being alone meant battling my own thoughts and feelings, or contemplating the frustrating future. Even alone at my computer, meant possibly being approached online. Haha, I don't dislike company. I like it very much, even long for it sometimes when I want to be distracted from work.

But there's a pleasing sense of nostalgia and satisfaction within me now here, all alone in the bioscience library... with no skype, no msn, and no yahoo messenger. The world is at my doorstep, true. But its safely locked out :) At least for now.


P.S: Thanks to everyone who helped celebrate my birthday yesterday! Was quite an illuminating experience, playing frisbee. Now I know how terribly unfit I am. And thanks, to QL, who actually cooked a salmon, spaghetti, asparagus, scallop, cheese and prawn dinner, and XY (and Ber, lol!) who baked a chocolate cheesecake, and everyone else who had lunch and dinner with me :P Lol, today I had another cake, a pink pumpkin one, in the shape of a heart, with a graduation hat and a butterfly, baked by R from my old lab. I guess the pics will turn up on FB sooner or later.